Today I felt really crumby for the most part, and I ended up outing my depression to a friend. I was crying and shaking, but I had to be kinda quite because we were backstage of a play, and she decided to tell my friends about how I had said that I wanted to die.
I could not be more thankful that she did.
She brought a big group of our friends and they’re all so wonderful, and she told on of the adults, who formed a bit of an intervention. I’m still really embarrassed that I created such a fuss, and I feel awful for worrying my friends, but I’m also very thankful to the people that helped me and relieved that I can trust others with my feelings.
I got to talk to some very godly people (one of the awesome directors of the show and one of the dancers parents [who are in ministry]), and they helped me with my feelings. They knew what I was going through, and they were just positively wonderful.
One lady told my parents, which really freaked me out. I was worried that my mom would get mad or start interrogating me (which she did a little bit [which I don’t blame her for doing]), and that my dad would get too worried. But I’m thankful she told them. They were both so supportive. I love them so much, even if they drive me crazy sometimes.
I want you all to know that it’s really not health to just bottle everything up. PLEASE, for your own sake, find someone to talk to about your problems. If they really care about you, they’ll want to know so that they can help you. And if you truly feel alone, know that God loves you. You might not believe in God, but there are people who do; those people, if they truly know God, know that He made everyone with a purpose in mind. He does not create anyone without a plan for them. He loves you. Please, if you take anything away from this, let it be that God loves you, and that those who truly believe Him love you too. I love you.
AngelMihe 