A – Ships that you currently like a lot. (They don’t have to be OTPs because not everyone has OTPs.) Friendships, pairings, threesomes, etc. are allowed.
B – A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.
C – A ship you have never liked and probably never will.
D – A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.
E – Have you added anything cracky/hilarious to your fandom? If so, what?
F – What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom?
G – Have you ever had an OTP? If so, do you remember your first one? Who was in it?
H – What is your favorite source text for fandom stuff (e.g., TV shows, movies, books, anime, Western animation, etc.)?
I – Has Tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?
J – Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr. (You don’t have to care about it or follow it; it just has to be something that Tumblr made you aware of.)
K – What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?
L – Say something genuinely nice about a character who isn’t one of your faves. (Characters you’re neutral about are fair game, as are characters you merely dislike. Characters that you absolutely loathe with the fire of ten thousand suns are exempt, as there is no point in giving yourself an aneurysm over a character that you hate.)
M – Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.
N – Name three things you wish you saw more or in your main fandom (or a fandom of choice).
O – Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of?
P – Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).
Q – A fandom you’ve abandoned and why.
R – Which friendship/platonic relationship is your favorite in fandom?
S – Show us an example of your personal headcanon (prompts optional but encouraged)
T – Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending?
U – Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.
V – Which character do you relate to most?
W – A trope which you are virtually certain to hate in any fandom.
X – A trope which you are almost certain to love in any fandom.
Y – What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?
Z – Just ramble about something fan-related, go go go! (Prompts optional but encouraged.)
I’m facing repercussions now from that day that I broke down backstage. The directors don’t really want me back there, they kind of blame me for causing a whole bunch of drama, and they’re writing to my parents to try to talk about it. I’d imagine that most wouldn’t want to hear about my issues, so I’ll just put it under read more.
I feel awful about this. I went to the theater yesterday to help out backstage, but was told by the male director that 1. They had enough people helping out 2. I made a little girl cry because she over heard me, and 3. They don’t need any unnecessary drama backstage because something else pretty big had happened last week. And, I mean I understand parts of this, but why would you tell a sensitive, anxious, depressed minor that she made her 10 year old friend cry? What made you think that would be a good idea???
I tried to go downstairs to hangout in the green room, but the lady in charge of it didn’t let me backstage, which I understand, but with my already dampened mood it just made me start to tear up. I ended up drawing a tiny bit of attention, and one of the ladies let me call home (thank God). A couple of my friends came over and by then my eyes were just puffy, so I calmly explained what had happened last week, and we just had a soft, friendly conversation. They were being really great and gave me a hug, too!
Then while I’m still talking with my friends, the female director (the other directors wife) tells me to go to the lobby. She walks with me and she was telling me (in a kind of passive aggressive tone), that I shouldn’t be there (backstage, even though one of the staff ladies told me I could sit in the stairwell) and that my friends have a lot on their plate and I shouldn’t be distracting them. I went home eventually after sitting in the lobby and talking with some nice ladies, and I wanted to bawl my eyes out. This was mortifying.
This is why I didn’t want to tell anyone. They start treating you differently. I know I shouldn’t have said anything to my friend on Saturday, but I just felt so overwhelmed and anxious and tired that I let it out. I know that I said it, and I know that I thought about what I was going to say before I said it. I tried being quite for 4 years, though, and it hurt. I finally let it spill out (at a bad time, but still), and this happens.
And this morning, we’ve gotten like, 2 voice messages from the guy, and my mom got a very strongly worded email from the lady (the directors). THIS LADY HAD THE GALL TO ACCUSE MY PARENTS OF DROPPING ME OFF AT THE THEATER SO THAT THEY WOULDN’T HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME. WHAT. THE. HECK. I am probably more offended that she’s attacking my parents then the fact that she made me out to be a horrible, selfish, bratty, trouble maker, when the entire time she has known me I have tried to be nothing less than the helpful, amiable, good example I always try to be. (Like I said, TRY to be. I’m far from perfect.)
Honestly, I’m kind of heartbroken by this. I trusted these people, and honestly I’m pretty torn up about this. My mom doesn’t want me to go back to the acting group, and while I’ll miss performing with my friends there, I have to agree. Yesterday’s events reminded me way to much of when I was in first grade, which was a very traumatizing year for me. I won’t go into too much detail, but it was basically a cycle of – Me being sensitive and messing up because I’m distressed, getting yelled at, me crying because I feel bad, getting yelled at for crying. (This was by my teacher, btw.) I can’t deal with that again. I REALLY can’t deal with this again. So, I highly doubt I’m ever going back there.
If you’ve read all of this, I’m sorry you had to put up with my ranting. I just REALLY needed to let this out.
Today I felt really crumby for the most part, and I ended up outing my depression to a friend. I was crying and shaking, but I had to be kinda quite because we were backstage of a play, and she decided to tell my friends about how I had said that I wanted to die.
I could not be more thankful that she did.
She brought a big group of our friends and they’re all so wonderful, and she told on of the adults, who formed a bit of an intervention. I’m still really embarrassed that I created such a fuss, and I feel awful for worrying my friends, but I’m also very thankful to the people that helped me and relieved that I can trust others with my feelings.
I got to talk to some very godly people (one of the awesome directors of the show and one of the dancers parents [who are in ministry]), and they helped me with my feelings. They knew what I was going through, and they were just positively wonderful.
One lady told my parents, which really freaked me out. I was worried that my mom would get mad or start interrogating me (which she did a little bit [which I don’t blame her for doing]), and that my dad would get too worried. But I’m thankful she told them. They were both so supportive. I love them so much, even if they drive me crazy sometimes.
I want you all to know that it’s really not health to just bottle everything up. PLEASE, for your own sake, find someone to talk to about your problems. If they really care about you, they’ll want to know so that they can help you. And if you truly feel alone, know that God loves you. You might not believe in God, but there are people who do; those people, if they truly know God, know that He made everyone with a purpose in mind. He does not create anyone without a plan for them. He loves you. Please, if you take anything away from this, let it be that God loves you, and that those who truly believe Him love you too. I love you.
Congrats you guys, you survived 2017, no small feat I assure you! May we all stick together and look out for one another this coming year.
Also congrats to @angelmihe , winner of the giveaway drawing! If you aren’t angelmihe (which regrettably is statistically likely) don’t despair, I’ll be doing another giveaway when I reach my next follower landmark.
If you’re too impatient for that, you can always either commission me or throw ideas/headcanon at me and hope they stick in my brain long enough to compel me to write them (which given my track record lately is also surprisingly likely, but hardly guaranteed).
Hope you all get some sleep and enjoy the rest of whatever holiday break you may or may not be having. Always remember in this coming year that you are valuable and worth it, and that the world needs YOU.
I watched Cars with my parents. It was really nice to just sit down and do something as a family. 2017 wasn’t the worst, or the best, but as long as I’m ending it with people I love, it’s good. 🙂
I’m not talking about fanfictions or AU’s based off of a video game/comic/TV series, I’m talking about a story with a world and characters that are YOURS and YOURS alone.
what they say: I hate tumblr
what they mean: even though I am grateful tumblr helped me being more aware of social issues this site is taking these too far and has developed some kind of mob mentality which seems to take it as their duty to punish every “problematic” thing anyone has ever done, completely ignoring that they never were perfect themselves.
Their harassment is almost always over the top, and the mob happily goes after anyone as long as someone can claim it’s been an act of oppression.
Therefore posting an opinion is very risky and accompanied with literal fear of harassment as this mob does not know when to stop, and cases of doxing have never been criticized either, and if I were to post legit criticism on some oppressed group I had a 50% chance to find people agreeing with me and 50% chance to be treated like the fucking antichrist.
AngelMihe 