I have no concept of the pain scale, like…I just realized that last week I said I was in especially awful hip pain and when my pt asked to rate it I said “3”. And then this week I said I felt a lot better than last week and when she asked me to rate it I said “3”. I really don’t know what the numbers are supposed to be. I know it’s supposed to be out of ten but like. I think I rate the pain by what time of the day it is. Like “i will rate the pain I’m in at a 5 at the end of the day, so compared to what my pain level will be later, what I’m feeling right now is a 3.” I also think i rate in overall pain rather than specific pain? Like, systemically I’m at a five. Some parts will be worse or better but i just rate it all at five because that’s the average
When I was a child, from the time I was about four and could understand things, my mom told me and my brother that we should have a secret word. That way, if we were ever in trouble or felt unsafe and we didn’t want the people around us to know we needed her to come get us, we could let her know. So she let us pick the word and my brother and I chose the phrase “peanut butter cups.” (I’m happy to share the phrase now since both my brother and I are adults now).
I used the phrase twice in my life. Once, I was at a friends house when I eight years old. Her dad got really drunk and was throwing things against the wall. I was really scared and I didn’t want to draw attention to myself on the phone when I called my mom to come get me because I didn’t know if he would get more violent if I asked her to come get me. So I called her and was calm and after a couple minutes I asked “Hey mommy, did you get me those peanut butter cups from the store?” And she said “I’ll be right there.” And she came and got me within minutes.
Second, I was a teenager spending the night at a friends house. Her brother and dad were drinking and they started talking about things that made me uncomfortable – ie: what they liked to do to women. My friend didn’t seem perturbed and said that was normal for them and that I shouldn’t worry. But I was worried because they were really drunk and I was 15 and the only ‘woman’ around that wasn’t related to them. I went in my friends room, told her I needed to call my mom and say goodnight. Before I hung up with her I asked “Next time we go to the store, can we get some peanut butters cups? I’ve been craving them.” And she came and got me, just like that.
Two incidents, one as a young child, one years later as a teen. Don’t discredit this stuff, it fucking works. My brother used it a few times too. Let your child pick the word and no never, ever, ever, ever get mad at them for using it no matter what it is.
Hi! Nice to see ya! ( ^.^)/ I’m not surprised you have grown attached to Albrecht – a lot of people are, haha. I myself have grown attached to him as well. Maybe because it’s the experience I have that mirrors his story (some personal stuff happened) or maybe it’s my affinity for German! He actually started out as a joke character… and he just… developed xD
To say whether he’ll live or not is actually a bit spoiler heavy. But since I am awesome I will give you hints! Hopefully you’ll get some theories going.
– If you pay enough attention to my use of words and themes, I have been foreshadowing stuff (some of which are still coming up in future chapters because, well, most of the arcs are not necessarily in chronological order) – Albrecht has a prominent lisp and a strong accent when speaking in English despite having intensive practice in French. He changes th’s to z’s. – Z is the 26th letter in the English alphabet, which has 26 letters. – He is Propeller Knight’s very loyal best friend and so he will stick with Propeller Knight and defend until, well, he dies. (”Ich werde ihn schützen bis ich sterbe” back in M is for marriage basically had him announce this epically) – Propeller Knight cares a lot for his crew and treats them like family.
And with that, I leave speculation rolling! Thank you for reading my stuff! You also reminded me of the characterization posts I planned on making that were scrapped when I was down with flu. Happy reading!
Thank you for responding! It means a lot ^u^
Thank you for the hints! I’ll definitely, be looking through them and considering everything to figure out something. These are pretty cryptic, but that won’t discourage me, and undoubtedly others, from trying to figure out something. Also, if I’m honest, I’m actually glad you didn’t directly answer the question. It’s worth the wait.
I’m still positively reeling from the new episode but I really, really wanna talk about Pearl’s song for two specific reasons (which I had to process back-to-back so consider me thoroughly destroyed.)
Beyond the fact that it’s beautiful and touching and basically everything about it is perfect – the pacing, the colors, DeeDee’s vocals, the lyrics, the cinematography, the emotion – I feel like this song does a little extra for us. It might feel like a rehash, especially given how much material we already have concerning Pearl’s feelings for Rose, yet despite all previous musical numbers and instances of Pearl addressing that, this still feels very fresh and unique a perspective to bring to the topic.
Because I think what’s really gripping about this song is how it’s not even really about Rose, it’s about Pearl! Who she is, what she wants, how far she’s come.
It’s about Pearl wanting to move on, about her loving Rose but her wantingtomove on from Rose, to move past petty feelings, to focus on what’s important now.
I’ll say that the moment that really struck me most in this song was when we take a step back and we see Pearl fully, when she’s standing on the glass of the balcony and delivers these lines:
War and glory, reinvention
Fusion, freedom, her attention
Out in daylight, my potential
Bold, precise, experimental
I feel like this is Pearl reflecting back on all she dreamed of, the things she aspired for before Rose left. She was a renegade soldier, fighting for change, ideals of freedom and self-importance. Pearl came from a background where she was never meant to fight, but she worked at it, became something stronger than she was, for herself as much as for Rose. Out in daylight, my potential. Bold, precise, experimental.These are things Pearl truly sees herself as, or at least, she used to. Someone who was growing, becoming something better, something she could be proud of.
Then immediately she falls, doubts herself, thinks of what she is now, what she’s become in Rose’s absence. She thinks herself ‘petty and dull’, as if she’ll never be anything beyond that (what does it matter? it’s already done), but she has to be here without Rose. Be there for Steven. Because if there’s nothing else Pearl can do that’s worthwhile, she at least wants to be there for Steven.
That’s why this song is so heartbreaking to me, but also gives me hope. Pearl isn’t quite there yet, but she desperately wants to be, she wants it to be over. She wants to move beyond this. Yet the song isn’t hopeful, it’s a sigh of defeat. Benign acceptance thatit’s over, isn’t it?
But Rose is gone, and she’s still here, and she still can’t move on.
I think she can, though. I think it’s important that we’re shown Pearl wants to become better. I think that’s the point of her character, in the end. As much as it might sometimes feel like Pearl’s entire character is built entirely around Rose, to the point where it feels like they’ll never be separate, I think it’s more that her character is built on top of the impact Rose left on her.
Pearl’s development is about her learning to love herself, to better herself on her own terms, for her own reasons, and this song is amazing because it shows that she wants it and she’s slowly getting there, despite how much it still hurts.
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