An intense bloom of Pycnoporus sanguineus, a reishi lookalike that has also seen traditional use as a medicine. Aboriginal Australians reportedly chewed this fungi to cure mouth ulcers and other oral disease. Extracts from this mushroom have industrial applications in dye degradation.
hey if you guys could please pray for me, I need help.
We’re stuck in currently-more-pressing limbo AGAIN because Dad is being very himself in demanding that we have to move, there’s NOTHING that’s at all feasible either financially or practically for our family on the market, I’ve been semi-unwillingly unemployed for a month which has felt far longer, no longer having a work routine took away my disassociation which has made my mental state a roller coaster between something occasionally vaguely resembling peace and out and out despair, I can’t make any plans even if I were mentally capable of it because Mom—who flip-flops between insisting I can do whatever I want whenever I want and trying to talk me down—says I should wait until x next thing. Oh, and in this case the ‘next thing’ is a scan to check the new growth in her lung because there is now a growth in the opposite lung from the one they saw when she last had a scan, in 2010. Because that was the last time she allowed herself any medical intervention because she got sick of being guilted and harassed over it.
I’ve had a headache for the past week and have probably cried at some point while falling asleep at least five nights out of seven, soooo yeah things suck right now. And I can’t even say it’s more than usual, but helldamit this has gone on for my entire life and I am beyond sick of it. I can’t even feel sorry for myself because the guilt is making me Try To Get Right With God again and all that does is activate the ocd that says that if you ever have the slightest tendency to make excuses for yourself it’s proof you’re the worst thing alive.
Half the time I want things to be better. The other half I want my life to be over already because that’s more likely than this changing, especially for the better. I can’t even dismiss that viewpoint as drasticization, because it’s true.
I’d just really appreciate some prayers I actually believe will be answered, aka not mine. If you offer even one, it’ll mean so much to me. Thank you all.
Aw, first time sending an ask to me!? Yay!! I apologize for the delayed response in answering this.
I believe an “open door” from God will give you peace. If you don’t feel comfort and/or peace about dating right now, I don’t think you have to. God knows your heart and His timing is always PERFECT. I think that He will send a guy your way when you are prepared to date and prepared to get married and all of that.
Don’t be afraid to pray about it! Just because a door opens doesn’t mean that God opened it! I believe that when God opens a door, you’ll KNOW it is from Him and you will be led to walk through it.
I hope that this helps and makes sense. God Bless you!!
friends are not people to drop once you get a boyfriend or girlfriend.
friends are not a phase of childhood that you grow out of once you become an “adult” due to having a romantic relationship.
friends are not empty vessels for you to dump your romantic problems onto.
cultivate your friendships. hold onto them. love them. because if what you have with your partner doesn’t work out, you may not find those friends to go back to.
AngelMihe 